Saturday, May 2, 2015

Change of plans for today.....

Last night, as I was thinking about today, this is how I thought today would go....

Get up. Shower. Dressed. Bill takes Rebecca to softball opening day and for her team picture. The boys and I join them at the softball fields at 11 for Rebecca's first game. We go out to lunch. Come home and do some laundry and relax....
What do they say about best laid plans??

Our reality this morning has been.....

My alarm went off. I reset it. Then I woke up to the sound of what sounded like running water....go into the hallway to find Rebecca throwing up on the bathroom floor.....I get her to the toilet, where she throws up more......Sigh......Apparently the stomach bug that has been going around her school, has hit her. 
She went back to bed with a trash can next to her bed and went back to sleep. 

I checked on her a little bit ago and she said her stomach still hurt a little bit and she was tired....So no softball today at all. She is very disappointed but she needs to get better and rest....

As for my plans....I am not going to plan on relaxing as much. I am hoping to get laundry done (we got way behind this week) and I am hoping that Bill and Jacob can get some yard work done today as well. 

So my plans have changed.....that is just how it goes! Hope everyone else is having a more relaxed Saturday! 

Friday, May 1, 2015

Pizza, pizza on the porch

The weather today in our area was absolutely fantastic. Sunny, not too warm, not too cold. One of the things that I would like to work on is being more intentional in getting the kids outside during nice I decided that we needed to have dinner on the porch. 

We do not have a backyard to speak of....our neighbor lets us use his yard to play....but there is a lovely front porch on our house where we keep our patio furniture that was gifted to us several years ago. I decided that today was as good a day as any to wipe down the patio furniture and eat dinner outside. 

Friday night is pizza night at our house. So while the pizza was cooking, I took a bucket of soapy water outside and wiped down the chairs, table and the 2 little tables. I also swept the leaves, etc. off the porch. It looks better. There is still some deep cleaning that needs to be done, but it is better. 

Rebecca, Jacob and Benjamin were super excited to eat outside on the porch. They loved eating their pizza and raspberries and blueberries for dinner. Then they spent about half an hour just dancing and watching their reflection in our storm door. It was a lovely dinner experience!

When the weather is nice, do you eat outside? 

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Books that I read for fun in April

Last year, I spent the last half of the year documenting the books that I read for fun.  I have decided that I need to continue that as reading is important part of how I relax. Books that I read for fun are books that I have not been asked to review and that I have chosen to read, well because I like to read.

I did get some things read this past month, maybe as an escape to all that is going on. I don't know. I have found that I am getting into trilogies and series....and so here is what I read for fun in April.... (Disclaimer: if you click on the book picture, it takes you to the page on Amazon.)

Here are the books I read for fun in:

March 2015
February 2015  
January 2015
Books from 2014

Have you read any good books lately?

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Wednesday odds and ends

I know, I know I have been a bad blogger....I get inspired, then I write....then I have no inspiration and life gets in the way and I don't know how to put my thoughts onto this here blog. Therefore today, I just have tidbits of this and that to share and that is okay....

First up....this has been a hard, emotional week for me. There are things going on involving decisions that need to be made and it is frustrating to me because it all comes down to finances and I am just ready to throw my arms up and say forget it. 


Secondly....speaking of blogging, I have joined together with a bunch of other bloggers who have formed "Bloggers United" which is a group that is meant to help form a community of bloggers who support and comment on each other's blog to hopefully help each blogger make a little more money on their blog and just to be a supportive group. This group was founded by the lovely Sonya Ann over at "A Mom, Money and More." (You should go read her blog, it is fabulous!) and this group features many of the blogs on my blogroll. (I hope to have it updated soon with a new list of the blogs featured in Bloggers United. 

Thirdly....speaking of Sonya Ann, she is currently enjoying herself in Las Vegas (a place I have never been). While she is away she is hosting a giveaway for a $25 Amazon Gift code. If you want to go enter, please go here to do so....there are many different ways to get an entry into her giveaway! 

Fourthly and finally----it has been a long week and it is only Wednesday....I think that I would like some blueberry-pomegranate chocolate chunk ice cream that I bought earlier I am off. Hope everyone has had a great Wednesday! 

Saturday, April 25, 2015

I decluttered all my clothes today...

Today started off good, then went bad, then went good again. 

My dear hubby let me sleep in for a bit. I had to get up around 10 as he had to leave at 10:30 to go to work. I felt off when I got up, but I think that is just because I am not used to sleeping in.... 

Then, I told Rebecca to go get her glasses on. She came to me and the screw in the side was almost out and the side was really loose. I got out my eyeglass kit and went to screw the screw back in and instead the screw fell out and I could not for the life of me get it to go back in or for the holes to even line up. I worked on that thing for over an hour to no avail. I was so frustrated.....

When Bill got back home he suggested we get the kids out of the house for a while. I think he really wanted to get me out of the house.... We went to Walmart to see if their vision center could fix Rebecca's glasses. Thankfully they were able to! YAY! While we were there, I picked up a tote to put camping supplies in and some new socks for Jacob and Rebecca. I think there is a sock monster here in our house because Jacob's socks keep disappearing. I found 4 packs of nice socks on clearance for $2.50. Yay! 

After Walmart, we went to Bob Evans for a late lunch. I had their blueberry brioche french toast. It was really yummy. The service there was lousy though, so I am not sure when/ if we will go back. 

When we came home, I decided to get something done. I had read an article that a friend posted on facebook about minimizing their wardrobe and cleaning out their closets. I had been thinking over the last several days that I have all these clothes and I don't wear most of them because I don't like how they look on me or they are too small, etc. So I decided to tackle my clothes. Here are my before pictures: 

dresser before

closet before (I share with dear Hubby)

I went through each dresser drawer and decluttered. Then I went through ALL the clothes and shoes in my closet and tossed the clothes I didn't want on the bed. 

I tried on each piece of clothing and each shoe. What I was left with, is clothes that I really like and will wear. I also ended up with a much neater closet and dresser AND 4 garbage bags FULL of clothes and shoes to donate!

closet after

Dresser after--that is empty space in the drawer!

4 bags for Goodwill!

It was really freeing to go through my clothes, etc. Yes I felt guilty because I spent money on these clothes that I never wore. Yet now when I look in my closet I know that I wear EVERYTHING in there and that I like what is in there. I don't feel bad about what is in there because I know that it all looks good on me and I like how it is looks. Hopefully this will make it easier for me to keep on top of laundry and will help me feel better about myself. I highly recommend doing this project for yourself! 

Well I am off....hubby and I are going to have a date night tonight. I think we are going to order pizza and play Scrabble. Should be a fun night. Hope everyone has a great Saturday night! 


Friday, April 24, 2015

Thank you and feeling a little better today.....

First of all, I want to say Thank you to all of you who left such sweet comments and words of encouragement on my last post. It has been an emotional roller coaster of a week for me and I think everything just came to a head. Your words of encouragement and prayer really lifted my spirits and helped me to see that I am not alone and that it is okay to be discouraged and overwhelmed. That just makes me human. 

I know that I am overwhelmed because we are in the midst of figuring out what is best for the boys. As Mysti pointed out in her comment on my last post, it does seem like we are doing a lot for Benjamin. That is because he qualifies for these services through our local public school system when he turned 3 years old. He turned 3, April 2. It was recommended that Benjamin not start going to preschool in April for 2 months before summer vacation began. Instead we could have him receive the therapies for those 2 months if we were willing to meet up and take him to the different places. Then we would take the summer off, and in the fall he would enter preschool where he would receive OT, PT, Intervention, and Speech during the preschool hours.  We felt that this was the action that was in the best interest of Benjamin, as I know how important early intervention. And honestly, Benjamin is doing great with the therapies. It is just hard on me...but as his mom, I will do what I need to do to help him have a great start to his life. 

As far as Jacob is concerned, we are in the beginning stages of figuring out his needs. He has been having OT at school since November for a vision issue that we figured out and he is loving that. We have applied for a scholarship to get OT services for him next year when he is in Kindergarten. We will have to see what, if any, other services that he will need next school year. 

It is just very, very overwhelming to comprehend and to live. I will admit that today I felt a little better and I think that is because I get 2 days off from therapy appointments. After Benjamin's OT and Speech appointment this morning, he and I spent the morning running errands and just hanging out. We went to Walmart, a local grocery store to get bacon and hamburgers and to Goodwill. I just needed to focus on other things and just veg for a bit. 

Part of being a mom is also not neglecting or forgetting about Rebecca. Mysti, thank you for pointing that out. I am trying to make an effort to spend at least a little bit of each day with her one-on-one. She is my social butterfly, so I am trying to make sure that we are allowing her to do things she enjoys including being involved in American Heritage Girls, playing softball in our local girls league and just doing other things with her to make her feel special. 

I am trying to be a good mom, and I hope that I am doing enough. One thing I do know is that I will not become an alcoholic because of this. I drink maybe 1 alcoholic drink every 6 months, that is just not my thing. I do need to figure out how to deal with stress though without eating chocolate and carbs! That is my vice. Just have to figure it all out. 

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

I can see why some people become alcoholics....

I can now see why some people can become alcoholic when dealing with a ton of stress and seeing no other way to deal. 

I have been dealing with a lot lately. 

Benjamin was diagnosed formaly with autism in October of 2014. We have been managing appointments, evaluations and theraphies since then. This has been upped since he turned 3 on April 2. Now we have added in therapies that are being done through our local school district. His schedule (which means my schedule) has become....Speech through our insurance on Mondays, occupational therapy on Tuesday, Board of DD visitation on Wednesday, physical therapy on Thursday, and Intervention OT and speech on Fridays. Our lives have been turned upside down and inside out in order for us to give Benjamin the best possible foundation that we can give him. It is a struggle sometimes and I am overwhelmed but we are taking this day to day. 

As if that was not enough, we, as well as school officials, think that Jacob may also be on the spectrum, but more on the asperger's side. We are having initial testing done next week and we will go from there.  Jacob is a very bright child, however there is definitely some social behaviors that are not normal that he is exhibiting and some other nuances that have been bugging me that seem to be different behavior. 

And if THAT were not enough, my husband, at the age of 43, has been diagnosed with asperger's. To me that diagnosis only puts a name onto some of the quirks that Bill has. He is still the same person that he has been, but it helps to explain why he does and feels certain things certain ways. He has taken the diagnosis hard, but I have to remind him it does not change who he is. It just gives a name to his differences. I don't know what this means for him, but is something that we will have to work through and work with. When Bill called his mom to tell her, she denied that he was diagnosed and is in denial that he falls under the spectrum. 

I don't know what all this means, except it is adding a lot of stress to my life. These 3 men are the center of my life, along with my daughter, and I can only hope I am being the support that they need. There are times that I am frustrated, upset, anxious, overwhelmed, exhausted, etc. by these diagnosis and what the future looks like. I don't know sometimes how I can handle any of this. I just keep putting one foot in front of the other and moving forward because that is the only option I have. 

And if all THAT were not enough, my mother had to have a heart catherization done on Tuesday and she had to have a stent put in as one of her arteries was 95% blocked. She was very close to having her 2nd  heart attack. That scares me because I am so like her in so many ways and I know that heart disease can be hereditary.  Then you add in the everyday stress of busy job schedules and everything else and it is no wonder I am not an alcoholic. 

I am not really sure, why I am sharing all of this. I just need to get it out I guess.